Life has been patiently waiting for me

You know the interesting thing about life is that you never know what is going happen next. I have recently come across information that I feel is critical for my life. You see up until recently I didn’t know that some of my past mistakes are due to learned behavior from my childhood and adolescence. I am not blaming my parents I am simply saying that how I learned to cope with life is directly related to what I learned when I was younger and I didn’t realize how it affected me. As if you couldn’t have told by now…

Where to now?

Yesterday afternoon I called my mother to talk to her about something I can’t remember at the moment, when I did she indicated that her and my father would like to talk to me. Based on our conversations most of the time I wasn’t exactly excited about talking to them. Then last night while I was out with some friends my father called and left me a voicemail also wishing to speak to me. After I got home my mother proceeded to tell me that they (my mother and my father) have decided to move to Idaho and stay on…

Are you out there?

I wonder if the woman of my dreams actually exists, are my expectations too high? I guess in order to know if my expectations are too high I have to help you understand what it is that I am looking for. I am looking for the kind of love that makes you sigh after a kiss, a simple touch that is worth more than a thousand words, a look that makes you smile all the way from across the room. A woman that even after 50 years of marriage still looks at me the same way she did when we…

Free at last! Free at last!

“Let freedom ring. And when this happens, and when we allow freedom ring – when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God’s children – black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics – will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual: ‘Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!’”

Death and Taxes…maybe just death then

They say there are only two things that sure in life and that are: death and taxes. Honestly after preparing tax returns two years ago I truly believe that death is the only thing that is absolute. Yesterday at 6:15 am my Grandfather Loren Clifford Bowden passed from this life into the next. He was 81 years old. This blog is dedicated to his memory. This was not a surprise as he had been in failing health for a time already. He either suffered from or enjoyed Alzheimer’s for quite a while, I say enjoyed because I doubt he really…

Is Chivalry Dead?

The notions that people live with honor, commitment, and that they would live up to their word is it dead? I think I may have been born in the wrong time period (I know this isn’t true but sometimes I feel that way). A simpler time where people lived according their word. Where men respected women and women honored men. I am not referring to a chauvinistic time period where men were to have thought to be superior to women but a time where men and women were equal yet different. When there were gentlemen and ladies. A man would…

Alone in a crowded room

I struggle, I move on. I struggle, I move up. Yet there is one thing that still evades me. With as much success as I meet with, I also meet with quite a bit of disappointment as well. Often times I can be amidst a crowd in a room yet I feel all alone. Certainly there are people around yet I feel I have no connection to any of them. Of course I am friendly and polite. I attempt to get to know them yet the conversations seem so shallow and empty. A good conversationalist in my life in a…